January 2012
16 posts
positive things: - the books i ordered should arrive soon - the clinic discharged me today - i leave on monday negative things: - pneumonia (again) - i haven’t packed anything - i have no energy to pack anything
December 2011
13 posts
and there will come a time, you’ll see, with no more tears. and love will not break your heart, but dismiss your fears. get over your hill and see what you find there, with grace in your heart and flowers in your hair.
today i smashed my scales and burnt my calorie counter, food journals and my journals from while i was in treatment/hospital. it was so uplifting to know that the worst of anorexia is (hopefully) in the past.
“Remember, remember, this is now, and now, and now. Live it, feel it, cling to it. I want to become acutely aware of all I’ve taken for granted.” - Sylvia Plath.
November 2011
12 posts
Never be afraid to raise your voice for honesty and truth and compassion against...
– William Faulkner (via misswallflower)
i’m going out for a coffee with a possible new therapist in ten minutes. this is just too weird. it’s a saturday and she is picking me up from my house. i feel like so many professional boundaries are already being crossed. too weird. i can’t even. anxiety.
October 2011
13 posts
i have a week to decide whether i want to fully discharge myself or if i want to go back into full time treatment. i don’t know what to do. it shouldn’t have to be this black and white. recovery or eating disorder. life or death.
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